Updates on life

So I haven’t been here much since last week movie review and I must apologize because I said that I finished my exams and that now I was going to be able to write more but turns out it wasn’t like that.

At the moment I’m moving out of my house.

Well, I moved out of my house like a month ago but now is official. While I was moving out because of all the issues with my mother, she was having some problems with my sister’s father and the rent of the apartment. He stopped paying for it. So because it’s a rent eviction came and now my mother and my sister (and partially me too) had to get our things out of the apartment and get a new place immediately. Since I moved out my mom got a place with room for her and my sister only so you could say now it’s official. For the moment I’m living in my grandparent’s loft since they’re in Europe and I don’t have nowhere to go because we still have to find a place for me.

Even my sister and mom will be joining me in my grandpa’s loft for some days until vacations because although they have a place in the sight, a lot of papers have to be checked. The thing is next week we’re all traveling to US so the search and the move out are going to be paused until we return here. Yeah, everything is pretty messy these days plus my finals are three days before going on vacations.

 Yet somehow I’m relaxed and tranquil. I’m happy for the trip to Florida and because we are going to be able to go to Universal and Disney (my favorite places in the entire world if you have been reading my first posts you’ll understand) My grandparents are coming back this week as well so that’s another point of positivity. Yesterday I saw two of my friends for a bit of time because they’re were getting together to study and I had to give one of them a present for her birthday so even though I didn’t have the time to stay and study I went to see them, I hope they notice this as a demonstration of how I care about them even if sometimes I don’t show it. 

I want to promise that I will be more present but I don’t want to lie to you, the truth is busy days are coming. I’m going to try my best though because I really love writing here.

 

See ya!

MOVIE REVIEW: Finding Dory

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Last week I had the chance to go and see Finding Dory, not only was I excited about it because it’s a Disney/Pixar movie but also because Dory has a special place in my childhood, I still remember being 7 and going to see Finding Nemo in theaters.

Let’s talk about the movie and try not to spoil anything. Like the title clears it out this movie is about Dory and her journey. As you may know she has short-term memory and though she remembers Nemo and Marlin because she sees them every day her childhood and origin are a mystery to her… until she does remember something, she gets a glimpse of memory of the past that takes her to the idea that she had a family and she needs to find them. With that, Dory , Nemo and Marlin start a new adventure full of new charming characters and really cool places.

If I had to choose between the first and the second one I think I definitely would stay with this one. First of all because although Finding Nemo is part of my childhood my sister was the one who was more obsessed with it. See I have a complicated relationship with Pixar movies and only now I’m starting to really value them. When I was young I used to love them but I would get tired of them really quickly (except The incredibles, I love that movie) And maybe it was that my sister’s bed was full of stuffed animals in the shape of Nemo, Dory and Marlin or the fact that she used to watch the movie everyday just like I used to watch The Lion King everyday when I was her age, must be a family thing.

I found the movie (I did something there hehe) really dynamic in terms of the spaces it takes place. The new characters were amazing and funny and I was glad that we also got to see old ones like Crush and Mr. Ray. I would however have loved to see those sharks again, they were hilarious. What I also loved about this film is how well handled Dory’s illness is, I got so emotional with it. It’s funny how a movie without any major tragedy like brutally killing the family at the first part of the movie (ahem, Finding Nemo, ahem) can make me cry like a baby… or maybe that’s just me I see a bit of emotion in a scene and I’m already crying, you have to always have in mind you’re reading a review of a person that literally cries during all of The Lion King. Yeah, not just Mufasa’s death, ALL the movie, even in Hakuna Matata.

The colors of the movie also caught my attention a lot, I feel the need to point it out because some scenes had really beautiful art. And finally but not less important the soundtrack and the song at the end on the credits, simply incredible. I saw the movie two times and even in the second one I stayed listening to Sia’s Unforgettable (cover) because it was really beautiful (and is now on my Apple Music songs)

I’ll leave it here for you to listen cause I really, really loved it.

easier said than done

Story time! Last friday I went to have dinner with a friend, one of the few ones I feel I can express myself freely without regretting what I do or say (although nowadays I regret everything I do) I spoke to her about how I moved out of my house (Oh yeah, I moved out! probably post about this coming soon) and how now that everything was relatively okay new feelings inside me were coming out, things that I guess I kept inside because I couldn’t deal with them at the moment. I didn’t really want to mention what things but she asked if she could know, and because I don’t know how to say no I told her.

My friend then proceeded to give me this advice “It’s okay to not be okay”.

“I know” I said. “But I shouldn’t feel this bad, I should feel bad about things that are going on now but not the past, that’s just a waste of time”

“Look, ” She answered me with that tone of voice she uses when she knows what she’s talking about “I know you know it’s okay not to be okay, but I also know it’s easier said than done. As soon as you feel bad you start to wonder why you feel that way, you don’t want feel like that and you want it to stop, so yeah, easier said than done”

She was right. I was always the kind of person who said to people you couldn’t be happy all the time. Cause then you don’t learn about sadness and if you don’t know sadness how are you so sure of what happiness is? There’s nothing more beautiful that a shot of happiness after a dark hour. You know you’re happy because you felt what being sad feels like and you learn the difference. I don’t know if I’m making sense, sometimes expressing this ideas is really hard for me in a language that is not mine.

“It’s okay to cry” I say and yet I wonder why sometimes I just start crying out of nowhere. Why sometimes all of a sudden thoughts of the past fill my eyes with big tears, why do I cry myself to sleep if it’s over? Why am I sad if I’m free?

All these are questions that already answered. And yet in the moment I still wonder them, yet at the moment of crying and letting it go I don’t want to.

I still have to learn that is alright. It’s normal, to feel overwhelmed after all of what happened. To pick up the idea that this will pass and that crying is not forever, that if this didn’t happen then I wouldn’t truly value my shot of happiness. And that’s why it’s easier said than done.

What I’m into at the moment

Hey lovely people! This was supposed to be an update post about what’s going on with me but I then thought it was going to bore you to death so I decided to do a “What I’m into at the moment” post, it’s kind of like a favorites of [insert month] but because I can’t wait til the end of the month and I never do those kind of post I’m going to do this, why am I explaining this to you? No idea just go with it.

So because of exams and university I haven’t been able to do many things, however I’m going to try to list my favorite things at the moment for you.

  • TV Shows

I don’t know why but these past months I haven’t been able to update myself with any tv show I watch, not even daredevil, my favorite ever. However the only thing I can watch at the moment is Grey’s Anatomy, I’m currently on season 5.

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It’s really weird because at first I was really against watching it. My sister came to ask me if she should watch it and I told her not to because everybody died. Two weeks later she started Grey’s and a month later I gave up and started it too. It’s so good but so sad, but soooo good.

Another TV show I’m about to start is Elementary. I tried watching Sherlock from BBC but I honestly couldn’t, and the cast from this show is freaking amazing. I haven’t started yet because of exams but now that I finished those I’ll be getting into it.

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  • Music

Since I changed to apple music I stopped having playlists to hear while I walk on the street but seeing as lately I have only been hearing specific songs and passing all the others I made one

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Those are it. Come Alive by Foo Fighters and Black Sheep by Metric have been an obsession of mine these past days.

  • Books

I only read the prologue of this book because, you know, exams but I’m really excited to read it.

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I’ll leave you the goodreads description if you haven’t heard of it.

Under the influence of their charismatic classics professor, a group of clever, eccentric misfits at an elite New England college discover a way of thinking and living that is a world away from the humdrum existence of their contemporaries. But when they go beyond the boundaries of normal morality they slip gradually from obsession to corruption and betrayal, and at last – inexorably – into evil.

  • Movie

So I’m not into any movie at the moment since I watched Captain America Civil War and X-Men Apocalypse but I could tell you the movies I’m really excited about this and next month

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I’m so happy the wait is over with Finding Dory, luckily, I get to see it next week!

Ghostbusters-2016

Unlike others I’m really excited for this Ghostbusters movie, all female and Kate McKinnon on it, I love her!

  • Make up

I’m not sure this is make up (because I know nothing about make up) but due to the cold winter upon my country my lips are really dry and they hurt sometimes so my forever companion from Nivea helps me a lot.

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  • Clothes

This Levi’s scarf I love so much.

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So this are the things I’m into the moment, hope you liked it, if you feel familiar with one of this things comment what you think, or not, you’re free to do whatever you want 🙂

see ya!

Liebster Award

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I’m back with a Liebster Award! I have been trying to post as much as before but just when I decided I was going to try to post every day I got into exams week, yeah talk about timing.

Thank you so much flickbox for nominating me! If you got time go check this blog, it’s pretty awesome.

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Let’s see the rules:

  • Thank the blogger(s) who nominated you
  • Answer the 11 questions that the blogger gives you
  • Nominate 11 bloggers of your own choosing
  • Give them 11 questions
  • Let the bloggers know you nominated them

Perfect! The questions are…

1. What is your favourite horror movie ?

I usually  hate horror movies but if I had to pick one I actually liked it would be Psycho

2. If you could be a movie bad guy, which one would you be ?

Wow this one is good, hmm I think I would be Loki from Thor and The Avengers. I’m actually saying Loki because I cannot think of other bad guy at the moment.

3. Would you let a movie crew film in your house ?

yeah! This actually happened to a friend once but it wasn’t a movie it was for a tv show from here.

4. What kind of movie would you like to star in ? Why ?

I’m between action, sci-fi, fantasy and adventure because usually those are the movies I obsess more about.

5. Which movie star should live forever ?

I think Leo DiCaprio is on top of my list here.

6. Would you like to be an actor/actress ? Why or why not ?

If I had talent, wasn’t so shy and had the appearance to attract audience in today’s society (unfortunately this is “important” nowadays) I would totally be an actress. I love movies, entertainment, theatre and all things related to acting, I grew up in it because my mom took a lot of acting classes and I used to go and see her plays.

7. Do you think movies have been developing technology or technology has been developing movies ?

I think is a mix of both. Thanks to technology more movies have been developed and at the same time these movies make us work more on the technology being used to make them so we can improve them.

8. If you were to be an actor / actress, which director would you like to work with ? And actor ?

Humm directors I think it would be Kenneth Branagh, Zack Snyder or Baz Luhrmann and actors… that is really hard because I love a lot of actors but I would choose Robert De Niro or Rachel McAdams

9. Would you rather be in a movie, or be given $500.000 ?

Be in a movie.

10. Think of a boring movie you’ve seen. Is there a way to make it better ?

I can’t think of any boring movie I watched… Most of the times even if it was boring at some point I end up liking them anyways. Recently I watched Now is Good with Dakota Fanning and Jeremy Irons but I couldn’t finish it because I got bored. I can’t say I blame the movie here though because I think I was just a bit tired of the same theme. Maybe in another time I would have loved it.

11. Which movie has the best story ? Tell me about it.

Oh this is so difficult, a lot movies have incredible stories. For now I’m going to say Stardust because it’s one of my favorite fantasy movies. Although for being based in a park attraction I would say the Pirates of the Caribbean movies have a great story.

Hey! this was fun, loved this movie related questions 🙂

Now my questions are:

  1. Favorite movie based on a book?
  2. Favorite snack for a movie?
  3. Book you wish there was a movie adaptation? or book you wish there wasn’t a movie adaptation?
  4. What is going to be your costume for this Halloween? or if you don’t have plans because it’s kinda early who/what would you want to dress as?
  5. Jurassic Park, Pirates of the Caribbean or Marvel movies?
  6. If you were in a movie/book what character would you be? (protagonist, best friend, love interest, etc…)
  7. When a movie based on a book comes out you are usually the person who already read the book or the person who is going to read the book after seeing the movie?
  8. A TV movie you liked?
  9. Think of your favorite character from a book, which actor/actress would you choose to portray them?
  10. Would you rather be the director of the movie the book is being adapted to or the writer of the book the movie is being adapted to?
  11. Pick a favorite character from a book, which movie character do you think they would have a great chemistry with?

I like this questions a lot!

I’m actually going follow the rules and nominate 11 blogs for once:

Let me know when you do this or if you do this, you don’t have to if you don’t want to of course, but if you do I would love to read the answers.

 

I told her!

Hi WordPress friends! I hope you don’t mind me calling you friends. You can’t know all these things about me and not come out being a friend, an internet companion, a WordPress buddy… whatever.

On a last week post I told you guys about telling my best friend everything that went on in my life and by everything I don’t mean how university is going or what I had for breakfast but be sincere about my issues at home. An I did! I’m surprised because I was not going to tell her actually, shame on me, I know.

She told me about her deal with her new girlfriend and how it all started and then we watched some movies. I was kind of disappointed that she didn’t come to me earlier but I know I should respect her times. She said she didn’t know how to tell me so I guess I understand.

After watching Crazy Stupid Love (one of my favorite rom-coms ever) we started searching Netflix to see what else we could  watch and suddenly she spoke to me “Hey, you told me you wanted to talk to me” I got really nervous cause I knew I had to but I just didn’t want to ruin the night and all I could think of is “But I already wrote a post about it so now I have to do it”

So I told her.

I told her and she listened to me like she always does and then explained to me that just because she knew this it didn’t mean things were going to change or that she was going to treat my mom every time she saw her differently from how she treated her every other time she saw her.  I was so relieved and happy that I could talk to her about it. I feel like if something is going on now I can go to her beside my therapist.

Another important thing that happened this weekend was my mom’s birthday. The party itself was kind of boring for me because I was alone and didn’t have anyone to talk to. I sat with my mom’s friends for a while but I felt that I was intruding so I stayed in my room my old room for most of the time. When I was leaving my aunt left with me and started telling me about my mom’s alcohol problem.

My mom and my aunt had the exact same problem with their mother (my grandma) the difference was that my mom (the youngest) was taken away by my grandpa and because he wasn’t the father of my aunt (just like me and my sister have different fathers) he couldn’t take her away with them and my aunt had to stay. She grew up with an alcoholic mom and had to deal with it just like me and my sister and then just to get away from that she married really young to a boxer who ended up beating her.

Yeah, my aunt is a survivor and me and my sister love her because besides all that she’s really funny and cool. The thing is that until saturday night I didn’t know her position about the whole drinking thing my mom had. We talked about it and I told her a couple of things I was afraid of telling her because she’s her sister after all, I love her but I never thought I could have her as a confident in this situation. She talks a lot to my mom and I think she knows the exact way of doing it so my mom won’t push her away.

She also told me I should go to AA meetings for families with alcoholic members. She went to those when she was young and she explained to me that they understood exactly how you felt. A therapist can let you express out loud how you really feel and advice you but they most probably didn’t went through what you’re going, the people who goes to these meetings do.

I’m seriously considering it, I think that what’s stopping me is the whole going there and sitting down start. Maybe with a little more courage. She said I reminded her a lot to when she was young and it broke her heart to think that me and my sister were going through the same. She described some feeling she had towards her mother that sounded horribly familiar to how I felt. This was what broke my heart, that she had the exactly same thoughts and feelings. Because believe me, they’re horrible feeling I do not wish even to the people I dislike. However at the same time it feels strangely good to have someone who understands you that well.

I’ll do more reasearch on this AA family meetings…

See ya!

 

Sets from May

Like I said a long post ago, probably you don’t remember, didn’t read it or I didn’t even said it, I have a Polyvore account. For those who are staring at my post asking to themselves “what the hell is a polyvore?” Is a fashion site that let’s you create your own sets of clothes, you can also create artistic sets or home sets, meaning it doesn’t have to be clothes only. It’s more of a design thing.

I had my polyvore account for a while now and I love doing sets there so I decided to start a monthly post about the sets I do per month. I’m a bit obsessive so I usually do one per day if I have time… usually I have because I’m a lazy person.

Anyway my user is constellvtion if you want to see more of the sets I made (I make a lot)

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“Be Gentle”

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“A world where roses bloom”

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“Following pixies”

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“Listening Magic”

I did this one because I was hearing the harry potter audiobook which let me tell you it’s amazing.

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“keep breathing”

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“A starful spring night”

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“Sweet dreams”

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“That eccentric lady”

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“Catalyst”

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“Gardener”

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“The blower’s daughter”

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“Okay feelings”

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“Jaded”

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“History”

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“String along”

It may sound stupid but I love creating mini scenarios in my head when I do this. One of the reasons I love creating sets in polyvore is because I feel like I’m creating a character, reason why I started adding pictures to my sets (I didn’t do that before)

Most of the times the titles are references to songs or lyrics that I’m hearing at the moment.

Hope you liked it, see ya!