Introvert

“You always see in movies and in books that an introverted character eventually breaks out of their shell because one person changes them and if I’m being honest, I hate that. I hate the idea that something is wrong with introversion. Yes, socializing is good, but not a lot of people understand how physically and emotionally draining it is to be in crowds of people or to be told to “let loose” and “have fun.” As an introvert, my idea of fun is sitting on my couch reading a book, and listening to the rain as it hits the roof. If that’s boring to other people, then that’s fine, but I shouldn’t have to feel bad just because I have a different way of having fun. No one should.

Introversion shouldn’t be scolded, it should be embraced and celebrated and people who are introverts shouldn’t have to feel bad about it. There is no need to try and change something about us we can’t help.” – yatoofthedawn on tumblr

A little something I read a while back on Tumblr and decided to share it because I wish everyone I know would understand this.

 

When you want to do everything but you can’t do nothing

I always considered myself to be a very creative person, or at least someone who wants to carry that trait. That’s why, in some way, I love social media. It allows you to express yourself in any way you want to. I love taking pictures in instagram, creating themes, having fun with the colors I use in my pictures (even if I’m not so good at it). I also love commenting about stuff, I love joking on twitter, upload screen caps or creating gif of some random tv show I’m currently watching, or simply just retweeting someone else creativeness. I use Tumblr since I’m 16 years old, I think it’s an incredible platform for inspiration, as well as Pinterest. I also love YouTube and I have some favorite youtubers myself (I have always thought about creating a channel). Last but not least I love reading and writing in WordPress. Even if I don’t do it often.

But usually in these platforms I take the place of spectator. I like following people who show their work, inspirations or self to the world. It’s something I would like to do without being so worried about what people think, a characteristic social anxiety feature.

Sometimes, I can’t even blame social anxiety because I think it’s something deeper than that. Something in myself and how I can never seem to be able to create things even though I feel inspired and my mind screams about it. It’s never something specific. Just the pure thought of wanting to create something, to do something. I wish I could put a name to the feeling.

When I started university I chose journalism over cinematography because I loved movies but what I loved more about it was to talk about it. I wanted to be able to do something about it and now that I’m studying journalism I think that somehow I have lost that. I love talking about entertainment. I would love to work with something like that and lately every time I get an… let’s call it art attack (lol yeah, like Art Attack from Disney) I found myself wanting to create something related to what I’m studying.

I’ve been thinking about how to approach this idea but honestly, I don’t even know. Because apparently a job doesn’t seem to be an option since I can’t seem to get one. My aunt told me that I should take it by my hands. If I want to do journalism about things I love or interest me I should do it myself. Experiment. She told me I should create a YouTube channel and to be honest the idea always tempted me but I can’t get my head around the idea because I’m really conscious about myself and others. I can’t stand the idea that people from my university or people from high school might see it and laugh about it. I know it’s something stupid. I shouldn’t care what other people think, everybody tells me that but I simply can’t? That’s the way I am. I can’t allow myself to be the way I like because I’m too self-conscious about others and what are they thinking.

Anyway… There’s no point in this post really. I stopped going to therapy a couple of months ago and I just needed to put my feelings down somewhere.

Have you ever felt so self-conscious that it stopped you from doing thing you really wanted to? Let me know in the comments, I’m interested in reading you 🙂

Hope we read each other soon!

 

Don’t forget

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This is a daily reminder to not forget yourself.

Dance around the house a little. Be ridiculous. Blast that guilty pleasure song you hear at night when everyone is dreaming or at morning when everybody is still asleep.

Drink whatever you like in your favorite mug. Drink juice, water, coffee, chocolate milk, even soda.

Watch your favorite show, movie, anime, cartoon. Or read. Read poems, stories, biographies, nonfiction.

Eat whatever you like, today is your day. And if you need to go shopping to get some food, so be it. Buy the most delicious cookies, your favorite snack, your favorite candy.

Change your hair, cut it short or decide to leave it long. Go shopping, dress nicely or stop worrying so much and stay comfortable.

Think about yourself, compliment yourself, read essays, exams, writings that got you a good grade or a compliment in school, university or work.

Don’t feel unloved. Remember love comes in millions of ways and forms.

And remember: You come first, then the world.

Random topic: The Big Wedding and Whitewashing

Hey guys! I have been thinking about doing this for a while now. I wanted to start a sort of section (?) in my blog where I discuss or more like write about random topics. Sometimes I want to write about things here but I feel like I can’t because they come from nowhere. Like maybe about a movie that premiered a long ago and I just watched. Or an old book, or something about Harry Potter, you get the idea?

Anyway yesterday I watched The Big Wedding (2013) with Robert De Niro, Diane Keaton, and Susan Sarandon between other known actors (Ben Barnes, Amanda Seyfried, Katherine Heigl, etc.) It called my attention for the amount of great actors it had and also because I love Robert De Niro.

It was a really bad movie overall, the plot was predictable, full of jokes that had the intention of making you laugh but failed miserably and kind of aimless as well. Like a really, really bad comedy you knew it was going to be bad because no one knows about it and you thought you might have seen one of the actors in one of Grey’s Anatomy’s episodes but you’re not quite sure except this movie had A list actors that you can’t really understand how is it that they ended up agreeing to make this movie in the first place.

But that was not what bothered me. Yeah because if I’m going to start this Random Section thing in my blog might as well do it to complain about things. What made me hate this movie was the fact that they used Ben Barnes, a known english actor, they tanned him a bit and used him to portray a colombian young man who was adopted by a north american family. They even made him speak spanish.

I know this is not new. Hollywood does it all the time, they whitewash even the tiniest characters with no importance. However, I cannot help but be mad about it. Cause it wasn’t just that. Alejandro’s (Ben Barnes character) biological mother was from Colombia and was supposed to come with her other daughter to his wedding. She was supposed to be this really religious woman who prayed and stuff. Stereotyping much? Not only that stereotype but his biological sister was supposed to be this really promiscuous girl who jacked off Alejandro’s brother (the one from the north american family, not the colombian. That would be incest and even if they weren’t blood related they still both were Alejandro’s siblings so it was kind of weird)

So it’s like that for South America, we are seen as religious prudes or we are whores who only think of sex. I also know it’s not only with Latinos. Ghost in the Shell (2017), a movie adaptation of a japanese manga is getting boycotted because Scarlett Johansson, one of Hollywood’s most whitest actresses probably is portraying Motoko Kusanagi. A character that should have been given to an actual japanese actress. Which for me was really devastating since I used to admire Scarlett Johansson. Her trying to defend her decision on why she thought it was okay to pursue the role didn’t help at all.

But because I’m latina I thought maybe I told you a little more about other roles that were supposed to be for Latinos but ended up going for american actors.

  • Catherine Zeta-Jones in Zorro

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Though Shakira and Salma Hayek were considered for the role of Elena in Zorro, Catherine Zeta-Jones ended up playing her in both movies Zorro, and The Mask of the Zorro. I do think that these were spanish characters from spain and not South America. even though a lot of South American countries have spanish heritage. (Take me for example half of my family comes from Spain)

  • Al Pacino in Scarface

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In famous movie Scarface he plays the role of Tony Montana, a Cuban drug kingpin.

  • Meryl Streep (and others) in The House of The Spirits

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I love Meryl Streep just as much as the next person however in 1993 she portrayed Clara Trueba in the movie The House of The Spirits based in the book by chilean author, Isabel Allende. The movie is set in Chile and the filmmakers decided to cast Jeremy Irons, Glenn Close and Winona Ryder.

  • Ethan Hawke in Alive

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Are you guys familiar with the famous case of the uruguayan rugbiers who got stuck in Los Andes after their plane crashed? It was really well-known because a lot of the rugbiers who survived had to to resort to anthropophagy, meaning they had to eat their dead friends to survive (yeah that’s a  horrible way of putting it) Anyway I guess it was a good plot for a movie because in 1993 Hollywood decided to make the movie casting Ethan Hawke as Fernando ‘Nando’ Parrado, the Uruguayan rugbier.

  • Hank Azaria in The Birdcage

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In the movie The Birdcage, Azaria portrays the  role of a gay Guatemalan housekeeper. He won a SAG award for his role.

  • Johnny Depp in Before Night Falls

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In Before Night Falls he plays two cuban characters, Lt. Victor and Bon Bon, a drag queen. Javier Bardem, a spanish actor won an oscar for playing Reinaldo Arenas, the cuban poet and novelist.

  • Madonna in Evita

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This one hits home. Madonna portrayed Eva Peron, the famous argentine first lady in the movie Evita. I’m not even going to comment on this one.

  • Natalie Wood in West Side Story

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In this movie, where two street gangs are rivals, on of them is puerto rican and though they did cast Rita Moreno as Anita and that earned her an Oscar, they also casted Natalie Wood as Maria, bummer.

There’s a lot more actors and actresses who have accepted roles that could have easily been portrayed by latino actors, black actors, asian actors. And thought it always comes in question whether the filmmakers or the actors should carry the blame, remember the filmmakers do the casting but the actors also accept the roles.

source: Latina Magazine

Hope we read each other soon!

P.S: I don’t hate any of the actors by the way (except Johnny Depp, I don’t like him) I do think that they should have thought about if before accepting those roles.

Some facts about Hamilton’s real life characters

Hi! your always missing blogger is back! I debated a lot whether to write this post or not because like I said in previous posts, I struggle to find out what my blog is really about. On the other hand I was desperate to tell someone about this facts and I didn’t know what to write here so why not show you guys?

Are you fans of Hamilton? fans of history? both? In my case I’m a huge fan of Hamilton and I’m a huge fan of history so I decided to show you guys some facts about the founding fathers + other characters in United States Independence history.

You must think, how is it that you’re interested in this? You’re not even north american. Well, like I also said before I’m a huge history fan and I’m all about facts so when I listened to Hamilton and saw the show through a low quality video that was uploaded to YouTube I decided I needed to know more about this people so here it goes…

  • Congress mocked John Adams when they read his personal diary out loud.
  • Aaron Burr once ate ice cream too quickly, got a brain freeze, and then thought he was dying.
  • Thomas Jefferson had a ram that he called “his abominable animal”, which hospitalized some pedestrians and killed a small boy.
  • Thomas Jefferson also introduced macaroni and cheese to the United States, designed a macaroni machine and invented the first swivel chair.
  • George Washington was given the highest rank in the US military. When he died, he was only a two star general. Over the years after his death, more stars were added to his title; he now has six stars. By law, no one can ever outrank him
  • Marquis de Lafayette was convinced to join the American Revolution by King George III’s brother.
  • John Adams died on the 4th of July, 1826. His last words were, “Thomas Jefferson still survives.” He was sooo wrong, Jefferson died around 5 hours before Adams on exactly the same day.
  • Aaron Burr tried to light a candle with gunpowder. He failed, caught himself on fire, then tried again. Burr was the definition of human disaster.
  •  Alexander Hamilton had a pay book during the Revolutionary War. In the pay book, he wrote about “how in ancient Rome…naked young noblemen whipped young, married women during the celebration of Lupercalia” to help conception, and how orgies helped make “married women more robust and capable of vigorous offspring” To say he was busy during the war is an understatement.
  • Marie Antoinette, knowing that Lafayette was clumsy, invited him to dance. Nervous, he tripped and she laughed at him in front of everyone.
  • Adams was told by his wife Abigail Adams, to “Remember the ladies,” meaning consider giving women rights in the new country being considered. Abigail wrote this to her husband while he was in Philadelphia working towards Independence, and Adams jokingly dismissed that idea, saying “he knew better.”
  • Benjamin Franklin was not allowed to write the Declaration of Independence because everyone thought that he’d try to slip a joke into the document.
  • Marquis de Lafayette napped with george washington under a tree once while using washington’s coat as a blanket.
  • Two days before the signing of the Declaration of Independence, the delegates of the Constitutional Convention threw a party where they consumed 54 bottles of Madeira, 60 bottles of claret, 8 bottles of whiskey, 22 bottles of porter, 8 bottles of hard cider, 12 bottles of beer and 7 bowls of alcoholic punch.
  • Benjamin Franklin wrote an essay encouraging scholars to find a method for “improving the odor of human flatulence.”
  • Benjamin Franklin enjoyed “air baths” – reading or writing in his house completely naked.
  • Alexander Hamilton misspelled Pennsylvania on the Constitution.
  • Benjamin Franklin thought America should use simplified English spellings. He said words such as “though,” “through,” and “night” should be spelled “tho,” “thru,” and “nite.”
  • Alexander Hamilton founded the New York Post.
  • He was also the first politician to have his career ruined by a sex scandal.
  • While in England, Thomas Jefferson and John Adams visited William Shakespeare’s house together. They vandalized a chair by chipping off chucks to keep as souvenirs.
  • When George Washington found a lost dog during the battle of Germantown, he returned the dog across enemy lines to the dog’s owner, his opponent from the battle, General Howe.
  • Marquis de Lafayette came to America illegally, against the rules of the king, disguised as a pregnant woman.
  • He eventually got captured and brought back to france; he escaped on a cargo ship and bought all of the cargo to keep the ship from stopping.
  • Lafayette gifted John Quincy Adams an alligator as a pet.
  • Thomas Jefferson broke his wrist trying to impress Maria Cosway, a married woman.
  • Lafayette didn’t tell his wife that he was gone until after he was sailing away.

That’s all I have!

source : theselflessbeggar / buzzfeed

Liebster Award

back at the first week of January I got nominated by Victoria C Rae. I was so excited to do it because I love answering questions but it seems that I totally forgot about it until now so let’s do it. Thank you so much Victoria for nominating me, make sure to go and check her blog if you’re feeling curious!

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Rules

• Thank the blogger(s) who nominated you.
• Answer the 11 questions that the blogger gave to you.
• Nominate at least 5, but no more than 11 bloggers who you think deserve the award.
• Tell those bloggers you nominated them!
• Create 11 original questions for the next nominees to answer.

Questions!

  • 1 Why did you decide to start blogging?

I think is because I’m a big fan of social media but I always feel like I can’t be myself, I wanted a place where I could pour some of my truth freely.

  • 2. Who is your biggest fictional crush?

Well that’s hard. If we’re talking about books then I guess Gansey from the Raven Boys, if we’re talking about movies I think it’s impossible for me to decide. Now if we’re talking about tv shows, Pacey from Dawson’s Creek is my favorite everything haha.

  • 3. What’s a skill you wish you had?

Draw. Or be skilled with the camera.

  • 4. How many books did you read last year?

I’m so embarrassed with this haha. I set myself a goal of 20 books and I only read 10…

  • 5. Which was your favourite?

I’ll give you the sun by Jandy Nelson

  • 6. If you were thrown back in time which time period would you hope to end up in (and why)?

Maybe the 30’s or 20’s. Why? Fashion basically

  • 7. What are you most looking forward to in 2017?

Learning more.

  • 8. What is your all time favourite TV show?

I’m always changing the answer to this question but at the moment I think Sense8

  • 9. Do you have any plans for your blog?

Writing more hopefully

  • 10. What is one of your biggest life goals and how to do you hope to achieve it?

To move to the U.S. How do I plan to achieve it? I guess by finding a place to work there.. I really don’t have a plan formed

  • 11. What animal do you most closely relate to?

Probably a cat.

Those were some great questions!

 I’m leaving this one open for anyone who feels like doing it. 

My questions:

  1. What is your favorite thing about having a blog?
  2. What/Where is your favorite place in the world?
  3. what was the weirdest dream you ever had?
  4. What type of music do you listen to?
  5. A character from a book/movie/series you can strongly relate to?
  6. What do you do when you’re feeling down?
  7. What kind of adult/old person do you imagine yourself being? (angry ones, those that always offer you food, exotic, etc…)
  8. Would you rather live in the city or countryside?
  9. A quote that you love?
  10. what type of blogger do you usually follow?
  11. what social media is your favorite one?

that’s it, hope we read each other soon!

PS: Let me know if you did it, I want to read your answers!

 

 

From Brazil with love

So I’m trying a thing where instead of thinking what am I going to write about I just sit and open WordPress in hopes that inspiration will come along the way. Right now this thing is working. Obviously being in an almost paradisiacal place with the beautiful coast of Rio de Janeiro as the view and the people like tiny ants in the beaches of Leblon, Ipanema and Copacabana is helping a lot.

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I love Brazil, the always beautiful hotel I stay in, the beach, Jesus Christ (Cristo Redentor) up in the mountain looking down at the city and probably being mad at me because in these 17 years I have been coming to Rio I never in my life went to see him up close… and yeah probably also mad because I became an atheist and “betrayed” my family and I’m carrying Satan’s blood or something like that said my grandpa’s cousin once.

While I’m here and while I’m writing all this down I’m thinking that maybe I just need to be a little more natural. Not everything has to be long and carry powerful meanings, I’m obviously exaggerating here because I don’t believe any of my posts ever carried a powerful meaning… maybe the harry potter vs the movies, the message in that one was clear, THEY SCREWED UP EVERYTHING.

Anyway, what I’m trying to say while also telling you that I’m vacationing in Brazil is that I’m going to try to be more active. I can promise to try but I won’t promise it will work 🙂

Hope we read each other soon!

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PS: Hopefully I might be able to take better pictures and show you more.